I need to stop falling asleep in front of my laptop because it’s now turned into a bad habit. One of the reasons that I am falling asleep in front of my laptop is because my boyfriend and I are having relationship problems.
This semester I started noticing that we were drifting apart which is probably due to the fact that I am studying abroad. Then I started realizing that we were more friends than a relationship. At some point the romance was kind of zapped out of our relationship and our conversations became so dull. Now we started to talk over Skype more often but there are long periods of silence in between and it frustrates me to have such meaningless conversations just for the sake of talking to each other. This is what our conversations have turned into:
Him: What’s up?
Me: Nothing. You?
Yesterday, he wanted to Skype but I became really irritated because he had nothing to say. It was a waste of time because most of it was filled up with silence and the “so…” or “yeah…”.
The main problem is that I’ve noticed that he has always been the same person and I’m not. I’ve grown since are relationship first started and I feel he has not or maybe our relationship hasn’t grown. Our relationship might be stuck in High School and I don’t want that.
To be honest, I’m just so confused as to what to do right now and what I want. I’ve told him how I feel a few days ago so hopefully things will improve.
After rereading this, I feel like it sounds as if I am putting the blame on my boyfriend and I’m not. I’m at fault too.